Reliance

  Today is "Preaching and Teaching Convention" at school...affectionately known as "P&T". Workshops and seminars but no classes!! Nice break for two days. :) Since I don't have to work until 2:30, I decided to work on some school projects. One of them being for Psalms class with Mark Moore. We have an "Artistic Project" to turn in; ranging from writing, to music, to art, to pretty much anything he approves! So...I have decided to write an original psalm. According to "guidelines" for the project, it has to be of the same style/genre as the writers in Scripture. So I have entitled the psalm, "Reliance"...

Reliance

How long will I be kept waiting?

How long will my prayers go upwards

with no response?

I have waited for you and called out for You,

            But still You are silent.

I am alone, O God!

I need Your help for I cannot do this on my own.

My struggles are choking me,

            It is as if my throat has hands about it;

My hands are tied tight behind my back.

How did it come to this, Lord?

I have watched with heart and mind heavy

            As the ground is completely shaken beneath me.

Darkness threatens to close in even as I fight to stay

            In the Light.

Lord, I have looked to You,

            Yet so many times I have turned away once again.

I have learned in recent years that even through

            The confusion and misunderstandings;

You are still there for me.

My soul has cried out and finally,

            I have found rest.

Keep me at peace and strong, and let not storm clouds nor raging waves

            Overwhelm and waver my trust in You.

Seasons may change, winter to spring;

            But God, never do you change!

You are my lifeline, O LORD!

You alone are my source of hope!

When I look to You, I know You are there waiting.

My thoughts are set on You

            And my heart longs to be with You.

Even in this wilderness, Lord,

            You have given me an oasis!

My heart and lips sing praises to You,

            My Lord;

You are my strength and in you,

            Yes, in You O Lord, I find peace and satisfaction!

"Where Can I Go from Your Presence"

So...here I am at 2:49am and I just finished composing a hymn for my Music in Worship Literature class. We had to write at least three stanzas of our own composition to music already written. Mine is written to "What A Friend We have in Jesus" by Joseph Scriven, 1855.  :) The class is great and I have enjoyed the content very much. As my first test in it is on Wednesday, I may not love it so much the following day! ;) We shall see. In the meantime...here is my hymn...

"Where Can I Go from Your Presence"

Where can I go from your presence,

Heavens, seas or farthest lands?

Everywhere I hide you find me,

Even though I try my best.

If I say the darkness hide me,

Darkness tis not dark to Thee!

Though I’ve tried my best and hardest,

Still you find and watch o’er me.

I have faltered in my walk, Lord

Tested, tempted all the way

Now I see my sins and problems

How can I return to Thee?

Have you counted sins against me?

Wash my heart and make it clean.

Open up my eyes to see, Lord,

All that you have planned for me.

Lord, to thee I am returning,

From this world of toils and snares.

Fix’d my gaze on Thee most surely,

Humbled by the load I bear.

Grace? What is this gift you’ve given?

Grace to cover all my sins!

Ever still my constant Savior

Keep me, Lord within your hand!

Yahweh, Lord and great Redeemer,

In you I have found my rest!

You are my only Sustainer,

Never from you shall I turn.

When the wind blows, waves crash over

Sun shines down, and flowers bloom,

Never shall I be forsaken

Closer to Thee shall I cling!

TWINS!!!!

So...I got to witness today an awesome spectacle that I'd never seen before. A girl I know is having twins and I was present for her ultrasound. I have never seen twins in an ultrasound before and it was probably the most amazing picture I've ever gotten to see. Then, as the resolution cleared, I could see a flicker on one side of the womb and another flicker at the top of the womb. These were the heart beats of identical twins!!! Sure, I've seen heart beats of babies before, but never twins. :)
So...anyways...that was just something really special that I got to see today and I am amazed. God's handiwork of the human body is amazing!!!

"Still learning stuff that Exciting?"

 I am  in Psalms this semester and am learning so much! haha...I was talking to two freshmen friends while working and said the following, "My mind is being blown this semester. In...really good ways. I am in Psalms and Hebrews, and it's really fascinating. Really challenging me with what I think and how I've always viewed certain aspects of Scripture". They responded with wide eyes and one sputtered "And what year are you?" I smiled, "a junior." He grinned, "And...so you're classes are harder than your freshman year? Like...you're still learning stuff that exciting?" I laughed and they both joined in and we continued discussing the elements of learning and expanding learning.

 "...still learning stuff that exciting". Hmm...I would have to say yes. Followed with I never tire of learning, I tire of homework. :) But...without the homework there is no immediate application to what you learn. I love learning and hope I continue to love it and learn from those that teach me and eventually that I teach. It's a really cool thought that I'm not sure what to do with completely yet. I look forward to wanting to graduate, but I am continually learning that it is okay to just speculate and ponder and meditate and examine differing thoughts and processes.

Anyways, enough of my ramblings about loving education!!!